when you shit the toad and the toad hits the fan there’s a toad on the road.
बड़प्पन की धरती पर कौन बड़ा - एक जिसके कृत्या बड़े या एक जिसकी उम्र बड़ी ? — सरदार कुलदीप
Stuck in a one task a day unproductive productivity regime.
Summer depression ?
So long, placement की fearmongering करके side income कमाने वाले past years के GATE toppers और बाकी घिस्सू प्राणी। इस झक्की आदमी को अब आपकी ज़रूरत नहीं।
~ 24-09-2025
At least now I can say this officially.
I operate in short bursts of either creativity or monotonity. Most days pass by in a haze, with nothing more than half-assed bullet journaling at best. Making of lists and plans, browsing the web and collecting trivial information while living walter mitty-esque fantasies of creative fulfilment. Sometimes these menial activities get caught up in an outburst of inspiration telling me to get busy and to get my hands tied in either making a creative fantasy come true or in committing to my state mandated monotony.
Typing notes to self into a chatbox just feels better because there’s always the possibility that there might be someone on the other side.
things that are but aren’t:
- Schrodinger’s cat
- fight club
- Godel’s incompleteness theorem
सन २०२५* : कुत्ते लोगों की आवाज़ दबा रहे हैं।
*करीबन
सन २०२४ : कुत्ते विवाद से डरने लगे हैं।
आप किस कुत्ते के पक्ष में हैं ?
Some esoteric thoughts I had that I am too uninspired to articulate anymore.
But hey, at least I made all this cool shit in canva 2 years ago.
~20-02-2026
सन २०२४ : सभी कुत्ते कोट पेहेन्ने लगे है।
पदयात्री मां चुदाए, बड़ा बड़ा लिख देना चाहिए हर सड़क पर। मोटे मोटे अक्षरों में।
Fuck it. Its no point studying now. Its quite interesting that I’ve appeared for the most difficult and challenging courses of my life with close to no preparation, and I am still expecting a good score.
What’s wrong in expecting though ? For mathematics I can still say, its a useful tool that will be required by me across all of my engineering. But the physics ? Oh really that is an entirely useless subject, or seems to be at least. What is the point forcing everyone to learn something, when it may only be useful to a very specific few. Fermi-Dirac, Maxwell-Boltzmann, I am familiar with these names. As for what they did I have no idea. It was while watching a documentary on Oppenheimer I found the magnitude and the importance of their discoveries, while I still didn’t really knew what they had done.
26-02-2025
draft: false
25-03-2026
draft: false cringe: mostly removed